Goodbye,

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Say Goodnight And Go.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 6:11 PM

Friday, May 18, 2007

okay so those were like when i went out with nat. ahahaha.
my retarded actions, once again ;D

i lost the photos that were taken on jarad's birthday ): dnoe where the whole zip folder disappeared to.
but anyways, the picture of me headbanging ytd. i was friggin` high i tell you!

okay theres actually a pic of me doing emo hair with my uberuber soggy fries (inserts heart) hanging from my mouth. ahhahah. but yeah THE PARENTS ARE HOME AND I AM DYING TO SLEEP. SO TIRED.

svc tmr. out with babygirl and his friends after that. loves!

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 11:29 PM

Thursday, May 17, 2007

WALAO I WAS LIKE SO HAPPY THAT BLOGGER'S OKAY ALRDY.
....then the uploading pictures thing still cannot.

hahahhaha okay so anyways i am damn high can!
i was listening to metallica and i got so fucking high i started to headbang like wtfomgshit. im so high, i start to scold fucking vulgarities!
jarad refused to headbang with me. D; if it were natassia, she would have been on lah! grhhh. i was like pretending to have my own fucking concert and started jumping on his bed and headbanged while pretending to play the guitar solo. then i dod screamo and all. really one of my highest moments.

okay yesterday i was damn high too. HAHAHAHA. i was smelling the beehoon smell in my bag. then i put my head in my bag. then erna go push my head in and zipped up my bag! then i lifted up my head, all my stuff inside hitting my head. but my classmates all laughed at me though. and i was so bored during lesson, i rolled one round in the com lab on the rolling chair. hahahha. i was like disrupting the class. and my teacher couldnt care less. hahahahhah. then i also laughed to myself and all. hahahhahahha.

nat didnt come to school yesterday and today. i so miss her lah! hahahaha.

so yeah, have i mentioned? im at jarad's place now and im damn high.
cause i was listening to metallica and.............................. yeah.

okay iv met my girlfriend for the past two days! HEEHHEHEH.
hahahaha we were like ganging up against remus and jacky.

15 maywas when it started in 2006. and its the same, in 2007. (:
i love my babygirl. ;D he's really understanding, reasonable, and he treats me really really well ;D hahahaha. he's trying his best to quit smoking! ;DD
(i love my girlfriend as much luh. i must write this down. cause if i dont, im afraid she'll get jealous. hahahah so yeah, girlfriend, i love you! ;D)

--
haha if that bitchslutwhore thinks she's cool and all, she's wrong. oh, so she's so effing cool, she gets slapped.
and oh gawd, as if im not disgusted by baboons. im disgusted by baboon's every-single-shit in every-single-way. especially THAT stinking baboon. HAH.
(:

--
OKAY SO LIKE ONE MORE WEEK TILL HOLS!
i know hols means STUDYING.
but yeah.(of course a lil bit of playing and shopping lah) hahaha.

nat cut short hair! i wana seeeee! hahahh.

im really really bored right now. hahaha
im gonna paint jarad's nails.

&OH BTW I LAUGHED LIKE HELL JUST NOW. CAUSE JARAD TALKED TO HIS MOM ON THE PHONE WITH THE HONGKEE ACCENT! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA AND IM LAUGHING TO MYSELF ONCE MORE, JUST THINKING ABOUT IT.

OKAY BYE. IL UPLOAD ALLLL THE PICTURESSSS ONCE BLOGGER'S UNSCREWED! ;D loves!

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 6:24 PM

Monday, May 14, 2007

met nat at gombak. she was late again! ;D haahha sposed to meet at 1.
okay then we headed to town. food republic first, as she was hungry.
i watched her eat dao xiao mian. suddenly her dad called. blahblah. and her mom called. then haiyuhs nvn ): she cant alter jeans. then had to go home.
then i had nothing to do. then just nice my girl msged me. so i went to meet him, xifang and jacky. went to woodlands checkpoint to play pool.
girlfriend and i talked alot. talked bout my girl, jacky, thatperson (gives disgusted look), weiyang, some other girl, dates, numbers, benjamin(the fat one. i was so irritated by his actions with the cue -.- ) anddd yeah. ate at macs. then we took 912 to admiralty. four of us slacked at the chairs. then yeah talked for abit. stupid girl. he spray men's perfume on me! hahhaha his armani one. bastardd. then i let him smell my dior addict two and he agreed it was awesome. yey! ;D

okay then girlfriend sent me home. talked for abit. talked bout my girl. talked bout weiyang. LOL. she was trynna cheer me up lah. my girl made me sad.

tmr's 15may.

girl just msged me.
yeaps.
i miss girlfriend.
lol.

okay i think everyone will be confused bout who's girlfriend and who's girl and all. hahahha. nvm.

yupyup. oral exam tmr.
after that heading to town for the modelling thing.
okay this means iv been to town five days in a row. yeahhhh.

i topped up my phone on friday.
now left 5 only -.-
have been texting with mygirl, long &danny mainly la. hahhahah so fast finish.
hahhaa long is so damnnn nice &caring lah! ;D we have a date to the gym soon! hahaa

girl was so hawt when he played pool &billiard today. (:
he's grown tanner &more muscular now! got chest. HEH HEH.

life's good now (:
so many boys to choose from, better than wasting time with that one.

i guess it'd be my girl.
i just hope i dont make the same mistakes again though.
although nat and jarad totally disapprove of me &girl.
but girlfriend &all encourages me. lol. really dnoe.
girlfriend told me to trust girl.

Dilemma.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 9:22 PM

Sunday, May 13, 2007

RAR I WANA PUT THE PHOTOS I TOOK ON FRIDAY AND TODAY IN MY POST BUT BLOGGER GOT PROBLEM. BLOGGER LIKE GOT PROBLEM FOR HOW MANY DAYS ALRDY! $#^&#$%@#$!

so anyways. il be going to town with nat again! ;D
which means iv been going to town four days straight!
after that will be watching movie with girlfriend- xifang. and maybe jacky and remus.

Met weilong in num today!
hahahaha he's damn nice lah. help me find brolly. then he and his friends like so damn friendly, they talked with us, played with us for abit, lent us an umbrella.
then later we came back to return, they were like "hey! welcome back!"
ahahha so cute lah! all the three of them.

okay today right, from admiralty to heeren to fareast to cuppage (I WON HIM 4-3) to heeren to artfriend to kinokuniya to fareast to dfs to Dior to Burberry to Lv to causeway point to sakae sushi and to admiralty. WOW. haha. yeaps!
Birthday boy's day will be over in less than an hrs time (:
i hope i managed to make his day. i hardly bullied him today. achievement!
maybe exept during pool. got abit lah. HAHA. i helped him get his jeans altered to skinny plus another pair of black skinnies alrdy! after his LV wallet, il be helping him with his nike dunks, and then his cardigan. (:

yeapyeap!
sakae sushi was great. SALMON. UNAGI.
HURHURHURHUHURHRHUHRUURHUUHR

I LOVE MY DEARAYE JAN AND I MISS HER! HAHAHA ;DD
I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND XIFANG TOO AND I MISS HER!
HAHAHAHHAHAHA

okaybye!

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 11:03 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO
JARADTHEHORSEY&DEATHGOD&HECLAIMSHE'STHECHAMPBUTNO,IDONTTHINKSO.....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

okay celebrating his birthday with him later.
he's currently going through a makeover. HAH.
lv wallet, ck tops, skinnies, nike dunks, new haircut, getting rid of the glasses.
yeah i think im awesome. HAAAHH.

okay, friday.
went out with my dear baby- natassia.
and met liyuan (i think?) and daniel at fareast.
shopped around together. slacked at macs. went to G2000 to help dan find his dress shirt for the wedding. then dan, nat, &i slacked at pacific plaza. then remus texted me.
then we met at orchard and took the train to admiralty home together. he insisted on sending me home. he scared i small girl kena rape.

okay and saturday. met dan at somerset, headed to cine for pool. then taka, to buy my stuff. and then nexus, to pass mable the thumbdrive to pass to nigel, then paragon, to buy maggiemee. and then to woodlands to meet my dearaye- jan. then bukit timah, to cut hair at mayjiejie's. sat there for 3 hours or so. dnoe why so many stupid ppl yesterday. then jan &i talked alot. YEY.

okay we both like our hair. then we took bus to woodlands interchange. took 912 home tgt. and yey. i watched the eye2 on channel 8, and i was scared. YA. -.=

wow, i summed up everything so fast. hahahhaha.

wht do i have tmr?
nothing i think o.O
oh! i think i need to meet ----- to take things.
(imma secret agent, uh huh!)

;DD okay i go fly away now. hehehehehhehhehehehe BYEBYE!

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 10:07 AM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO /B>JARADTHEHORSEY&DEATHGOD&HECLAIMSHE'STHECHAMPBUTNO,IDONTTHINKSO.....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

okay celebrating his birthday with him later.
he's currently going through a makeover. HAH.
lv wallet, ck tops, skinnies, nike dunks, new haircut, getting rid of the glasses.
yeah i think im awesome. HAAAHH.

okay, friday.
went out with my dear baby- natassia.
and met liyuan (i think?) and daniel at fareast.
shopped around together. slacked at macs. went to G2000 to help dan find his dress shirt for the wedding. then dan, nat, &i slacked at pacific plaza. then remus texted me.
then we met at orchard and took the train to admiralty home together. he insisted on sending me home. he scared i small girl kena rape.

okay and saturday. met dan at somerset, headed to cine for pool. then taka, to buy my stuff. and then nexus, to pass mable the thumbdrive to pass to nigel, then paragon, to buy maggiemee. and then to woodlands to meet my dearaye- jan. then bukit timah, to cut hair at mayjiejie's. sat there for 3 hours or so. dnoe why so many stupid ppl yesterday. then jan &i talked alot. YEY.

okay we both like our hair. then we took bus to woodlands interchange. took 912 home tgt. and yey. i watched the eye2 on channel 8, and i was scared. YA. -.=

wow, i summed up everything so fast. hahahhaha.

wht do i have tmr?
nothing i think o.O
oh! i think i need to meet ----- to take things.
(imma secret agent, uh huh!)

;DD okay i go fly away now. hehehehehhehhehehehe BYEBYE!

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 10:07 AM

Friday, May 11, 2007

Its so ridiculous?

to dear amanda,
would you even have a chance to say shut up to me? cause i dont even say you all the time. besides, you always hear only one side of the story. who the hell are you to say me? since the very beginning, when you added me when ben told you to (for whtevr reasons) youve always been saying me. its just. ...ridiculous.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 1:16 AM

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Sighs, i know its my fault, i shouldnt have deleted her stuff.
but the phone really no memory.
like as if i want to quarrel with her. i had enough of quarreling with this family.
i apologised, sincerely. i really didnt mean to delete it.
then she shouted bad things bout me to asha so loudly.
whtevr luh. i wont talk to her anymore.
till she talks to me.
or till she decides to make use of me to accompany her down to admiralty to buy stuff.

fuck lah ): no mood to edit my highhigh post just now alrdy.
Bye.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 10:41 PM

HAHA im back home. OKAY SO ANYWAYS!!
was damn high after exams today.
satisfied with my final artpiece (:

okay after exam, went to mac with nat cia jarad and fahmy.
HAHA DAMN I WAS HIGH LIKE HELL X2039853894734 I TELL YOU!
LAUGH NOT STOP. THEN KEEP JOKING AND JOKING.
SOMETHING ABOUT SATAN AND DEATH GOD. THEN MY CROSS.
RAH! NVM. IT WAS DAMN FUN REALLY.
IM GETTING HIGH JUST RMBRING IT AGAIN. HAHAHAH SO MUCH FUN.

okay then i went to jp for awhile.
then bring jarad to may jiejie's to cut hair.
his hair looks good now. thanks to me.
HAHA. okay. was high at his house too.
watched videos. MISS SWAN DANCING.
i forced him to watch some more miss swan.
he got so disgusted and freaked out, he on his mp3 and blast -.-
haahha.

today's a happy &high day for me. ;D

ohya, i did stupid things at jarad's hse -.-
he bought maxim. then it came with this whtevr its called thing.
then like alot of tools inside lah.
il edit this entry with the pic later.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 8:09 PM

im at jarad's place.
i just created new email. hahaha dont like trishalicious.
so like ya. PILLOWHEAD!

i want to eat maggie.
bye! ;D

cause life's like this (:

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 4:25 PM

Wednesday, May 9, 2007

Okay! Hahahah i did my art halfway alrdy :D
monsters attack! (rarrr)

anyhoos, after tmr's art paper, ITS FINALLY OVER.
(i mean besides oral luh)
yeaps! friday going out with nat and cia!
for the first time please. -.- HAHA YEYS! hoorahhh!
then sat, its cut hair dayyy (jitters)
im scared the haircut will go wrong.
plus, im afraid il regret cutting.
my hair so damn long now alrdy. its like past my brastrap alrdy!
ohmy, itll be a pity to cut it all away /:
(okay im having second thoughts again. I SHOULD STOP)

so like, im takinga break now. ive been doing art since like four plus? yeah.
take a break till nine, watch tv from 9 - 10 then do art again later! yuppps.

so yeah, anyways! about YESTERDAY!
met nigel the fishball at cityhall. [:
then we headed to suntec. settled down at kfc. had our lunch together and talked for about two hours or so. Ohgawd, its been so long. so yeah, we caught up on alot and all. he lent me thumbdrive too! hoorah yey thanks! lol.

Rarrr, i want to eat sakae sushi buffet!
JARAD WE SHALL GO NEXT WEEK OKAY!
haha and jiayou on saving up 700 bucks for the LV wallet.
my brilliant idea, my brilliant choice, THEIR brilliant price ;D

(whines)
im having rashes somewhere near some obscene place.
ITS THE WINGS' FAULT! (okay girls with brains would definately get wht i meant)
ahahhahah.

okay boooo ): its pain lah. like dnoe rashes or skin tear.
didnt paste properly. then rubrub, frictionfriction, until like that now.
KE LIAN DE WOR ARHSXZXZSXZ .. !

(OMG THAT WAS SO EWW)

anddd, im like allergic to SHOKUBUTSU (starts cursing)
grrhhhhs. last time happy happy use johnsons baby milk bath one.
then mom suddenly go buy shokubutsu. wht the hell.
damn itchy lah. the first time it came out last time, mom also bought. i alrdy told her i get rashes when i use shokubutsu. im allergic to kodomo's shampoo too. hahah.
eh but their toothpaste damn nice to eat one uh, i tell you!
when i was young, i used to eat a hell lot of it.

GUESS WHT, PARENTS ARE BACK! BYE!

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 8:25 PM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6KtF7ql3FJc
WATCH THIS MANN.
damn hawt. sexaaaye!

okay at nat's house now.
planned things out alrdy.
go home later, bathe, sleep.
get up, do art ALL THE WAY.
yeaps!

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 1:46 PM

Monday, May 7, 2007

Do your boobs hang low,
Do they wobble to and fro?
You can tie them in a knot,
You can tie them in bow.

;DDD

Okay so like hello! im going to try to make a good and long entry today.
its been so long since i had a long post.
--
im at nat's place now.
math paper was.. gah, scroo. its like crap.
tmr's geog. i shall study later.
(so help, where should i start?)
i keep hearing my teacher say "MNC. MNC"
YES, MNC! Thats wht i shall read on later!

SO.
....tell me whts mnc please!

My Nehneh Crooked.
(wow, awesome.)

--
nat &i were devianting just now.
there was this pic, a girl with a star tattoo like at her stomach area.
the pictures' awesome. she captured everything well.
the tattoo, her finger,

as well as her oh-so-long pubic hair.
No, really, you shouldve seen it.
could any girl even be THAT hairy? o.O
okay i really dont know. i dont belong to the-hairy-category, thank God.

--
Seriously, im beginning to hate her. why do i even bother about her.

When she didnt have asha in the past, she looked for me.
now she has asha, she shoves me aside.
This is wht the world is.
just like ...Her. (yeah, her)

--
nat like fell asleep on her bed luh.
im bored. i have like six ulcers in my mouth!
six. SIX! S-I-X ! 6! LIU! (eh chinese okay!)
Can you believe it! SIXXXXX!
(whines like a biatch)
i dnoe how come so many luhs. four's on my gums, two's on my tongue.
i think the tongue ones are caused by my tongue piercing.
cause like i keep pulling the barbell here and there and then accidentally bite until my tongue.
as for the gums, i really dnoe man.
i think too heaty. Gah.

Okay i actually shopped quite alot recently.
in two weeks:
-high cut sneaks $35
-Topshop tunic dress $33
-school bag $40
-shoulder bag $39.

Yes. Exactly.
so i spent......
(takes 348754mins to count.)

147 buckeroos on two saturdays.
(note: guilty conscience for spending like a whore, thats why the small font)
Hah, im a real shopaholic.
Eh but i save well okay! hahaha :D

Nexttt, im gonna save up for new glasses.
i munna pay on my own luhs.
i want red framed specs, Uh huh! (;
i wanted it the other time alrdy.
(plus, my degree has increased quite alot luh. like even these alphabets that are appearing on the screen as i press the little nipples of the keyboard look blur to me)
(frowns for a bit)
but dad and mom were against my red glasses, claiming its not suitable for school.
This time, if i get em, il go without them!
they cant say no anymore.

Meep!

--
&okay, about.. That.
..Him.
uhh, You.
yeap. thanks for the uh, post.
I went to read it immediately after you told me.
teared for a bit, when i read it.

Well, dont think so much for now okays?
just make sure you get well soon.
your fever's really bad this time and youve got alot of us all worried for you.
drink lotsa water, take your medicine as youre told by your doctor.
NO heaty food too, alright?
dont use the com or watch telly for too long.
you NEED rest, you know it.
Takecare!

im going to deliver liangcha to you in a few hrs time.
[:

&oh, thanks for the salmon the other time.
it was good. ;D

--
OHMYGAWD SPEAKING OF SALMON.
I CRAVE FOR SALMON NOW.
SALMONSALMONSALMON.
(starts being and annoying biatch.)
SALMONSALMONSALMONSALMON.
(fixes an annoying look on my face, bangs my fists on the table and chants)
SALMON! SALMON! SALMON!

(someone owes me sushi!)
hurhururhuhruhurhhuhuruhruurhur.

\

Like, ohmygawd. i think my post's prettaye long this time.
Goodgood, its one step to getting back to how my blog was in the past.
(like when i was able to use the com almost anytime &before bitchia became a fishmonger)

Random:
(strips and hops around Fifi)

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 1:37 PM

Sunday, May 6, 2007

so we're both moving on with life.
no more expecting things from each other.
whtevr feelings we have, keep it in ourselves.
n-o m-o-r-e expecting things from each other.
today's the day.
i guess we've both had enough.
we cant even get along that well as friends.
but still, friends is all we'll be forever. yups.

--
okay!
math paper tmr. whts there to study! o.O lol.
okay theres alot to study. FORMULAS!
diediediedie.
&totally no mood to study.
i want to shopshopshop! i love my topshop dress.

MENUSSUHCKSLIKEOMGWTFSOLIKEYA,BYE.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 12:48 PM

Saturday, May 5, 2007

at jarad's place now.
was damn high just now!
my topshop dress! yeyyeyyy!

headbanging to starfuckers now. RARR! high like hell ;DD

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 9:33 PM

Friday, May 4, 2007

thanks for the memories, even though they werent so great.

no school today, cause poa paper.
okay so like. just woke up.
should i still go nat's house later?
like want to go but abit lazyy.
okaynvm later then decide.

flies

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 12:18 PM

Thursday, May 3, 2007

I couldn't tell you
Why she felt that way
She felt it everyday
And  I couldn't help her
I just watched her make
The same mistakes again

Let the world stop turning,
Let the sun stop burning,
Let them tell you love's not worth going through,
If it all falls apart,
I will know deep in my heart,
The only dream that mattered had come true,
In this life, I was loved by you

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 1:59 PM

like, at nat's place.
watched mtv just now.
tried to pierce myself here and there.

now listening to ACSI band's syf song.
damn nice. awesome.

--
lost for words, with all to say.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 1:50 PM

Thursday, April 26, 2007

So like, EXAMS STARTS TMR!
OHMYGAHHHHH.
okay im ad jarad's place using the comp now.
will work on my physics later.

emotions.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 5:57 PM

Monday, April 23, 2007

HOO-HA, H O O - H A !
NANANANANANANANANANANA-
HE'S MY BESTFRIEND, BEST OF ALL BESTFRIENDS!
DO YOU HAVE A BESTFRIEND TOO?
HE TICKLES IN MY TUMMY, HE'S SO YUMMY TUMMY!
NOW YOU SHOULD GET A BESTFRIEND TOO!

i love my bestfriend. HAHAHAHH.

okay so like yah, IM UPDATING!
suprisingly, sissie allowed me to use this time, when i asked. hahahh.
sentosa on sat. no fucking pics again D; GRHHHS!
studying on sunday.
skipped school today.
flu. cough. ulcer = swollen lip. eye pain = swollen and red.

so like yah D;
I HAVE MANY ART HOMEWORK TO DO!
AHHHHHHHH! (screams and runs around pulling hair)
AND EXAMS START THIS FRIDAY! (stops, look left &right then pulls down pants)
....SO IT MEANS I HAVE TO STUDY LIKE HELL AND NO SHOPPING TILL EXAMS ARE OVER! (lifts up shirt to cover my face and run around like some mad soccer player)

i want my photos for arttt! wheees!
okay so like bye.
I MUNNA GO WATCH SOME LESBO SHOW NOW. TEEHEE.
(jiggles my tits)

omg so obscene. okay i go, bye.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 8:09 PM

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

OMG OMG, IM UPDATING!
SO LIKE, HIIIII!~

yes, at cia's place. had ss remedial after school.
fcuk ahseng lah. okay nvm.
--
i love my black skinnies, its tres hawt.
i need to shop more. AWESOME, ROCKIN` !
okay but very broke now alrdy.
so yeah ): must save some more first, then can spend again.
man man save ba.

i go die nowBYE! ;DD

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 3:35 PM

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

You left me without a single word (meow).

Why? I loved you so much.

I took good care of you &cherished every moment spent with you.

I loved watching you hang out around me, looking so lost &cute.

Youre one of the many cutest things that has ever happened to me.

I just couldnt stop crying.

Iv lost you, now, &forever.

Nothing would bring you back to me.

God, you have the power to make one live, &make one die.

to make one come, &make one go.

You made niuniu go, and prince&knight stay.

You made prince survive the fall, yet love, peace, joy &faith go.

&you made Princess die.

If you have the power to control all these, why wont you just bring Princess back.

Such a unique &prettaye thing, had to die at such a young age.

Im devastated.

Im crestfallen.

Yes God, it isnt your fault. Im sorry if my heart blames you a lil.

But why did you have to make me lose 6 kittens in my life?

niuniu, love, peace, joy, faith,

PRINCESS. <3

always be, a part of me;

forever &ever.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 10:06 PM

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Okay i have to face it.
my blog's so dead. Sigh.

skipped school today. feeling a lik feverish in the morning. and super super duper tired. yeaps.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 2:13 PM

Friday, April 6, 2007

Sighs, because i hardly get to use the com, my blog's dying. damn sad.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINEEE BIATCHMATE! <3

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 9:42 PM

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

NOONONNONNONONONOOONONONO MY BLOG CANNOT DIEEE!!

(but i cannot help it, sis hardly lets me use her com now. b^$*@)

okay so like michael saw my arm, he told rolandang.

rolandang counselled me today. f&%$%@#

talk so muchhhhhhh grgrgrrrrrrgsjgndknverbgkabhwerhg

okay so like I FELL DOWN YESTERDAY LA CAN! MY POOR LEGS! MY PRECIOUS LEGS!

(starts cursing even more)

ss and art remedial tmr. cross country on thurs. good friday on friday. busybusybusy.

sa1 in approximately three weeks. no time to hit the beach!

wauhgrjngkihgfgbigbwaeuigweg im like cursing alot ah? okay bye.

random: my parents bought ice lemon tea! o.O i wonder why. ..they hated me to drink ice lemon tea green tea apple tea kinda stuff. -.= &ben is so influenced in almost every single way. like he talks with a like too. he does brackets alot too. he does this "random:" thing. and oh, as well as metalll. hahhah. plastic. steel. hahhahhah okay im lame bye.

( whines: ........my precious legs D; )

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 9:28 PM

Saturday, March 31, 2007

left band early yesterday to watch Topshop unique &Topman design fashion show. bloody hell, the magazine nvr mention need tics. okay i mean its common sense that tics would be needed for Topshop &Topman. but i didnt think of it! gah D; so like jarad &i had nothing to do alrdy. &i was in school uniform some more. so like couldnt go play pool. then i rmbred i brought fbts. then i brought jarad go buy a new top. punkstar. okay chose one a design for him, he paid, we headed to cuppage, i changed, we played! hahhahhh. i was like complaining to uncle "uncle dont play techno please lehhhhhh." then he changed the music for me. hahhah. okay then headed home.

i want my photoshoot photos! hahah. ;D

--
woke up late. my eyes were giving problems too.
so like, not going svc lor.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 12:50 PM

Thursday, March 29, 2007

im just gonna die la.

i threw the harddisk. and its dead now. harddisks are freaking expensive.

&while trying to open it (with the penknife), i accidentally like stabbed it into my finger.

Hell, it bled like fuck. IM DEAD SERIOUS. the sink was flowing with blood. pictures are with nat. sigh.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 6:06 PM

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

THE KITTY ADVENTURES OF..

climbing into dad's shirt

(im lazy to rotate the photo)

&walking around the tv room.

okay school was actually awesome today.
took so many photos. im so contented. hahahhhh.
okay so liek yeah sis is back from camp.
whyyy. sooo. earlyyy. GAHHHHH.

random but i feel like eating prawns la bye

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 11:20 PM

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

so likeee, yisheng gave hweeling &i roche in the morning. hahahh.
skipped exercise. boringgg. talked with zahidah, farrah &hweeling during math.
love those girls. my favouriteeee malay girls. hahaha (inserts heart)

okay then drew &drew today. did two new drawings &added them to my deviantART alrdy.
so like, band after school. sat in the canteen before band. nat &i were going "BLAK NEENJA"
then like in the bandroom nat &i sat in front of the tympani &stared at ourselves. then we talked about our noses &eyes. and we did funny faces to ourselves &all. hahaha. then there was cockroach in the euphonium cupboard (gives exaggerated eww look)

slept while they played syf pieces. (cause i got nth to play ma D; )
okay then scolded one of my juniors for disturbing me while i was sleeping
lyk wtf lah i sleeping then step on my skirt, play with my hair, kick until me
(accidentally though)
BUT STILL, IM SLEEPING LEH HELLO. one should never disturb tania while she is sleeping.

dinner after band.
home after dinner.

i love my little kitty!

i just ate kitkat. hoorah!

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 10:25 PM

Monday, March 26, 2007

FCK LAH.
MY TONGUE PIERCING FCKING CLOSED AGAIN.

i was using the com halfway when i suddenly can taste like blood or rust.
then i quickly take barbell go toilet alrdy. then i open up the boardpin.
then the hole brownish. then i try to squeeze in the barbell. my tongue started to bleed and bleed. and i dont have any of the malay girls with me this time. i was in the toilet squeezing the barbell as i screamed to myself and kicked the walls. but i gave up, once i saw too much blood.
fck it lah. scroo board pins. FCK LAH. ITS LIKE THE FCKING SECOND TIME.

AND GUESS WHT. I COULDNT TASTE AT ALL JUST NOW.
NOW CAN TASTE ONLY ABIT. FCK LAH SERIOUSLY. JUST FCK LAH!

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 8:55 PM

okay sooooo...... I REALISED I TOTALLY MISSED COPPELIA!
(whines x98325723)

michaelaka was being a biatch early in the morning. (rolls eyes &goes like "whtevr.")
thennnn, art art art. did four drawings today! ;D
gonna take photos of them later &put them up on deviantART.
(chants: SOFUNSOFUNSOFUN!)

okay so, so far almost everyone who has seen the pic told me to go cut.
howhowhow. but like that il miss my long hair aye. heartpain abitabit. hahahh.
didnt sleep at all in class today okayyyy! (but drew alot)
slacked in the canteen with the babes, after school. shared stories &lame jokes.
then 4n2 went for their remedials, while erna &i slacked in the canteed once more.
talked. its been so long since we really talked. [; whees!
uhh then played the piano in the canteen for abit. erna helped me call nat. found out she left school alrdy -.= okay so we all went home. rarr!

Random:
1 my sensitive skin's working up behind my knee again.
2 im so into drawing with fine black pens now.
3 i love this blog so much i dont know why.
4 i love my newly decorated diary cover so much too i dont know why.
5 i just had dinner &im so full, i want to fly in a helicopter.
6 i have the sudden urge to camwhore.

(starts singing The Phantom Of The Opera in an exaggerated and dramatic way, sways left &right, then laughs to myself &thinks :omg retarded.)

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 6:53 PM

Sunday, March 25, 2007

{edited}

OHNOBOOHOO. sissie's going for churchie camp for four days! so i might no be able to use the com! (okay although i alrdy dont get to use it that often now) so like iv planned! go over to jarad's place to use! muahahas.

alright, so like, i was sposed to go to study today. but had slight fever in the morning. feeling much better now. so maybe il just do some self study on my own later. yeaps. i feel that this blog's dead. like not much ppl know of it yet. my tagboard's not alive, not like how it was in the past D; rarrr.

--
OKAY I CAN STILL USE THE COM FOR THE NEXT FOUR DAYS! (i talked to sissie then i came to the topic bout the com. &she agreed to remove the password thing for the next four days!) isnt that awesome!? (twirls hair!!)

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 2:59 PM

Saturday, March 24, 2007

so i went for the sexbombs' performance in the end!!
..........&i was late. WHY? cause i spent alot of time thinking if i should go.
so like, yeah. okay they didnt win D; fiqah was crying. so like yeah. went there, hugged each of them. talked to them &cheered them up for abit, then left.

played pool at cuppage. met both big sis and tiny sis there.
okay then we all left together. tiny sis, big sis, yuqian &i.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 10:58 PM

when the beat comes on,
the girls all line up.

yey waddy'a think!! ;D

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 2:38 PM

&i present you.....
pictures of my piano!! ;D

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 2:33 PM

so like, i didnt go for svc (duhh) thats why im at home now.
was sposed to go to watch the babe's dance performance at ps at 4.30pm.
still thinking if i should go or not. cause apparently, im sick.
didnt sleep well last night. i practically woke up at every hour lah-.-
cough &flu. so i coughed &sneezed till my asthma came. followed by fever.
so like yeah. but i still feel like going to the dance performance leh!

OKAY SO SHOULD I GO OUT STILL? (frowns and thinkkkks)
cause if im gonna go, id better start preparing. like, NOW.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 2:28 PM

Friday, March 23, 2007

we did talk in the end.
yey [:

okay art lesson.
woosh, this year's gonna be really tough.
id better start working on it this very second. theres no time to waste now.
all three of us are doing a book. lol. [:

slept for three periods today. so tired la, had only about 3 hours of sleep the previous night.

band after school.
dinner after band.
teresa (&jacob) after dinner!
hahhaha. okay had alot of fun talking to her actually. did some catching up. i was the one doing the talking most of the time. her life like nothing much happen, so she nothing much to say. hahahha. i had soooo muchhhh to tell her. i started from the very beginning, in fact. like from the time we just quarreled. so i started tell her bout janice &i. (blahblahblah) we took the train to admiralty. then took to woodlands ( hahah -.-) then to cwp, cause both of them wana buy present for jj (i dnoe how to spell his name luh) okay then we seperated at woodlands bus interchange. hahaha. had fun luh. i miss that lovelaye. [: (inserts hearts and hugs)

my parents arent in sg! ;D ...okay la but they'll be back tomorrow. they went to malacca again, for their buddhissyshit. but for one day only luh. tsk. why nvr go longerrrr. /:

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 11:17 PM

problems, problems.
Oh bloodaye hell, problematic lifestyle!
--

some conflicts start with a ridiculously stupid reason.
&somehow, they never seem to be able to end.
both parties have got to really learn to give in.
i have apologised umpteen times.
this friendship-
its hopeless, isnt it?
i hope it isnt.

&for other situations,
theres no point in explaining everything.
contradiction.

another problem is gullibility.
when one is too gullible, she just doesnt know who &what to believe.

Life's just so full of complications, yes?
when will these bullcrap end?
they never seem to end.
its like a serial. it just goes on &on &on.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 2:17 AM

Thursday, March 22, 2007

thank God i wasnt late for school today. i reached just on time! if not, id be marked late three days, consecutively. &that'd definitely cause trouble. (frowns)

was reading the papers during chinese lesson and saw toru &kelly, posing for SDT's current performace, coppelia. &then i started to feel a lil heavyhearted. i was just thinking, the other day. the parents always threaten to give away prince &knight. but they love prince &knight so much, that i doubt theyd even be able to let them go. &i thought to myself, they deprived me of piano (not anymore though) &ballet. if they were to give those two furry animals away too, id make sure they make it up to me, by giving me back ballet. (&i am so gonna beg dad to give me moolah to buy tix for coppelia, btw. I DUNCH CAREEE.)

farrah helped me to pierce my tongue after school. damn, she's good! i didnt feel much pain. well, not as pain as my previous experience with zahidah, at least. [:
farrah did it well. &its quite straight too! its not too much to the front too. hoorah! (runs around with my tongue stuck out and waves hands in the air)

i cant stand the fact that i havent touched the com yesterday. urghhs. sissie's honestly being an effing bitch lah! sighs. she doesnt leave the com on sleep mode for me now, when she goes out, everyday. she claims that when she leaves it on sleep for me, mom &dad would off the internet connection, then she wont get to use. doesnt she realise how theyve been going on &on about offing the internet connection when no one's using the com? so obviously when she's out &no one's using the com, they off the internet connection lah wtf
!@#$%^&*bitttcchhhhhhhh.

♡ ballet.
dance; the art of movements.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 10:03 PM

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

alright, im like using my dad's com now!
sis doesnt want to lend me her com (rolls eyes and scrunches up face)
so i use daddy's com while he's ohming in the living room!

okay school today was alright, after all.
we did talk. so like yeah. everything went well.
&i was like laughing to myself in class cause i was listening tuned in to muttonsinthemorning!
then they were talking bout superstitious beliefs. like yeah.
they said some really stupid stuff that apparently made me laugh to myself lah. -.=
(or was i just being the usual, easily amused me.)

okay after school was banddd!
mathi was being stupid.
like, "tania your position make your ass very sexy, later i horny how!"
roy: sia lah!
mathi: sherhan i saw you staring at her ass!
sherhan: ....what!?

like yeah. then i took an approximately 2hrs nap behind the drumset.
hahhahhahahhah.

(okay shit dad just caught me using his com. &he's now complaining how messy my room is.)

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 11:01 PM

Monday, March 19, 2007

in my previous blog, i havent been publishing my posts for days. but rather, saving them as drafts. sometimes, my life just gets so fckd up, i dont wish for ppl to know how fckd it is. i try to run and hide. but it doesnt get the better of me. im like on a roller coaster of emotions.
someone pushes the button, or winds me up-- Rewind, Stop, Play.

skipped school today. its a foolish decision i know, to skip school just so you dont have to face that someone. but i know very well, that if i went, id prolly be bitched by her once more, or just be 'transparent'. &i choose not to let myself get treated that way, so i made an unwise decision to just sleep right into my afternoon.

i was so upset about what happened the other day, not to mention, last night's text-message-conversation with her. giving in is not equivalant to shooting back at me and how you go about with "yes i know your life is fckd and i do not need to tolerate with your nonsense". whts with this world and selfishness? whts with this world and the negative sides? i cant answer that. cause imma victim of it all too.

the parents are apparently not back from their indonesia trip (for their buddhissyshit once more)

&i cant wait for the crappy part of life to be over.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 10:44 PM

(and the long awaited confession)
confession: i overdose myself on pills.

and boy, am i glad to see my health ruined.
oh gawd, im insane.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 7:02 PM