Goodbye,

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Say Goodnight And Go.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 6:11 PM

Friday, May 18, 2007

okay so those were like when i went out with nat. ahahaha.
my retarded actions, once again ;D

i lost the photos that were taken on jarad's birthday ): dnoe where the whole zip folder disappeared to.
but anyways, the picture of me headbanging ytd. i was friggin` high i tell you!

okay theres actually a pic of me doing emo hair with my uberuber soggy fries (inserts heart) hanging from my mouth. ahhahah. but yeah THE PARENTS ARE HOME AND I AM DYING TO SLEEP. SO TIRED.

svc tmr. out with babygirl and his friends after that. loves!

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 11:29 PM

Thursday, May 17, 2007

WALAO I WAS LIKE SO HAPPY THAT BLOGGER'S OKAY ALRDY.
....then the uploading pictures thing still cannot.

hahahhaha okay so anyways i am damn high can!
i was listening to metallica and i got so fucking high i started to headbang like wtfomgshit. im so high, i start to scold fucking vulgarities!
jarad refused to headbang with me. D; if it were natassia, she would have been on lah! grhhh. i was like pretending to have my own fucking concert and started jumping on his bed and headbanged while pretending to play the guitar solo. then i dod screamo and all. really one of my highest moments.

okay yesterday i was damn high too. HAHAHAHA. i was smelling the beehoon smell in my bag. then i put my head in my bag. then erna go push my head in and zipped up my bag! then i lifted up my head, all my stuff inside hitting my head. but my classmates all laughed at me though. and i was so bored during lesson, i rolled one round in the com lab on the rolling chair. hahahha. i was like disrupting the class. and my teacher couldnt care less. hahahahhah. then i also laughed to myself and all. hahahhahahha.

nat didnt come to school yesterday and today. i so miss her lah! hahahaha.

so yeah, have i mentioned? im at jarad's place now and im damn high.
cause i was listening to metallica and.............................. yeah.

okay iv met my girlfriend for the past two days! HEEHHEHEH.
hahahaha we were like ganging up against remus and jacky.

15 maywas when it started in 2006. and its the same, in 2007. (:
i love my babygirl. ;D he's really understanding, reasonable, and he treats me really really well ;D hahahaha. he's trying his best to quit smoking! ;DD
(i love my girlfriend as much luh. i must write this down. cause if i dont, im afraid she'll get jealous. hahahah so yeah, girlfriend, i love you! ;D)

--
haha if that bitchslutwhore thinks she's cool and all, she's wrong. oh, so she's so effing cool, she gets slapped.
and oh gawd, as if im not disgusted by baboons. im disgusted by baboon's every-single-shit in every-single-way. especially THAT stinking baboon. HAH.
(:

--
OKAY SO LIKE ONE MORE WEEK TILL HOLS!
i know hols means STUDYING.
but yeah.(of course a lil bit of playing and shopping lah) hahaha.

nat cut short hair! i wana seeeee! hahahh.

im really really bored right now. hahaha
im gonna paint jarad's nails.

&OH BTW I LAUGHED LIKE HELL JUST NOW. CAUSE JARAD TALKED TO HIS MOM ON THE PHONE WITH THE HONGKEE ACCENT! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA AND IM LAUGHING TO MYSELF ONCE MORE, JUST THINKING ABOUT IT.

OKAY BYE. IL UPLOAD ALLLL THE PICTURESSSS ONCE BLOGGER'S UNSCREWED! ;D loves!

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 6:24 PM

Monday, May 14, 2007

met nat at gombak. she was late again! ;D haahha sposed to meet at 1.
okay then we headed to town. food republic first, as she was hungry.
i watched her eat dao xiao mian. suddenly her dad called. blahblah. and her mom called. then haiyuhs nvn ): she cant alter jeans. then had to go home.
then i had nothing to do. then just nice my girl msged me. so i went to meet him, xifang and jacky. went to woodlands checkpoint to play pool.
girlfriend and i talked alot. talked bout my girl, jacky, thatperson (gives disgusted look), weiyang, some other girl, dates, numbers, benjamin(the fat one. i was so irritated by his actions with the cue -.- ) anddd yeah. ate at macs. then we took 912 to admiralty. four of us slacked at the chairs. then yeah talked for abit. stupid girl. he spray men's perfume on me! hahhaha his armani one. bastardd. then i let him smell my dior addict two and he agreed it was awesome. yey! ;D

okay then girlfriend sent me home. talked for abit. talked bout my girl. talked bout weiyang. LOL. she was trynna cheer me up lah. my girl made me sad.

tmr's 15may.

girl just msged me.
yeaps.
i miss girlfriend.
lol.

okay i think everyone will be confused bout who's girlfriend and who's girl and all. hahahha. nvm.

yupyup. oral exam tmr.
after that heading to town for the modelling thing.
okay this means iv been to town five days in a row. yeahhhh.

i topped up my phone on friday.
now left 5 only -.-
have been texting with mygirl, long &danny mainly la. hahhahah so fast finish.
hahhaa long is so damnnn nice &caring lah! ;D we have a date to the gym soon! hahaa

girl was so hawt when he played pool &billiard today. (:
he's grown tanner &more muscular now! got chest. HEH HEH.

life's good now (:
so many boys to choose from, better than wasting time with that one.

i guess it'd be my girl.
i just hope i dont make the same mistakes again though.
although nat and jarad totally disapprove of me &girl.
but girlfriend &all encourages me. lol. really dnoe.
girlfriend told me to trust girl.

Dilemma.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 9:22 PM

Sunday, May 13, 2007

RAR I WANA PUT THE PHOTOS I TOOK ON FRIDAY AND TODAY IN MY POST BUT BLOGGER GOT PROBLEM. BLOGGER LIKE GOT PROBLEM FOR HOW MANY DAYS ALRDY! $#^&#$%@#$!

so anyways. il be going to town with nat again! ;D
which means iv been going to town four days straight!
after that will be watching movie with girlfriend- xifang. and maybe jacky and remus.

Met weilong in num today!
hahahaha he's damn nice lah. help me find brolly. then he and his friends like so damn friendly, they talked with us, played with us for abit, lent us an umbrella.
then later we came back to return, they were like "hey! welcome back!"
ahahha so cute lah! all the three of them.

okay today right, from admiralty to heeren to fareast to cuppage (I WON HIM 4-3) to heeren to artfriend to kinokuniya to fareast to dfs to Dior to Burberry to Lv to causeway point to sakae sushi and to admiralty. WOW. haha. yeaps!
Birthday boy's day will be over in less than an hrs time (:
i hope i managed to make his day. i hardly bullied him today. achievement!
maybe exept during pool. got abit lah. HAHA. i helped him get his jeans altered to skinny plus another pair of black skinnies alrdy! after his LV wallet, il be helping him with his nike dunks, and then his cardigan. (:

yeapyeap!
sakae sushi was great. SALMON. UNAGI.
HURHURHURHUHURHRHUHRUURHUUHR

I LOVE MY DEARAYE JAN AND I MISS HER! HAHAHA ;DD
I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND XIFANG TOO AND I MISS HER!
HAHAHAHHAHAHA

okaybye!

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 11:03 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO
JARADTHEHORSEY&DEATHGOD&HECLAIMSHE'STHECHAMPBUTNO,IDONTTHINKSO.....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

okay celebrating his birthday with him later.
he's currently going through a makeover. HAH.
lv wallet, ck tops, skinnies, nike dunks, new haircut, getting rid of the glasses.
yeah i think im awesome. HAAAHH.

okay, friday.
went out with my dear baby- natassia.
and met liyuan (i think?) and daniel at fareast.
shopped around together. slacked at macs. went to G2000 to help dan find his dress shirt for the wedding. then dan, nat, &i slacked at pacific plaza. then remus texted me.
then we met at orchard and took the train to admiralty home together. he insisted on sending me home. he scared i small girl kena rape.

okay and saturday. met dan at somerset, headed to cine for pool. then taka, to buy my stuff. and then nexus, to pass mable the thumbdrive to pass to nigel, then paragon, to buy maggiemee. and then to woodlands to meet my dearaye- jan. then bukit timah, to cut hair at mayjiejie's. sat there for 3 hours or so. dnoe why so many stupid ppl yesterday. then jan &i talked alot. YEY.

okay we both like our hair. then we took bus to woodlands interchange. took 912 home tgt. and yey. i watched the eye2 on channel 8, and i was scared. YA. -.=

wow, i summed up everything so fast. hahahhaha.

wht do i have tmr?
nothing i think o.O
oh! i think i need to meet ----- to take things.
(imma secret agent, uh huh!)

;DD okay i go fly away now. hehehehehhehhehehehe BYEBYE!

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 10:07 AM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO /B>JARADTHEHORSEY&DEATHGOD&HECLAIMSHE'STHECHAMPBUTNO,IDONTTHINKSO.....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

okay celebrating his birthday with him later.
he's currently going through a makeover. HAH.
lv wallet, ck tops, skinnies, nike dunks, new haircut, getting rid of the glasses.
yeah i think im awesome. HAAAHH.

okay, friday.
went out with my dear baby- natassia.
and met liyuan (i think?) and daniel at fareast.
shopped around together. slacked at macs. went to G2000 to help dan find his dress shirt for the wedding. then dan, nat, &i slacked at pacific plaza. then remus texted me.
then we met at orchard and took the train to admiralty home together. he insisted on sending me home. he scared i small girl kena rape.

okay and saturday. met dan at somerset, headed to cine for pool. then taka, to buy my stuff. and then nexus, to pass mable the thumbdrive to pass to nigel, then paragon, to buy maggiemee. and then to woodlands to meet my dearaye- jan. then bukit timah, to cut hair at mayjiejie's. sat there for 3 hours or so. dnoe why so many stupid ppl yesterday. then jan &i talked alot. YEY.

okay we both like our hair. then we took bus to woodlands interchange. took 912 home tgt. and yey. i watched the eye2 on channel 8, and i was scared. YA. -.=

wow, i summed up everything so fast. hahahhaha.

wht do i have tmr?
nothing i think o.O
oh! i think i need to meet ----- to take things.
(imma secret agent, uh huh!)

;DD okay i go fly away now. hehehehehhehhehehehe BYEBYE!

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 10:07 AM

Friday, May 11, 2007

Its so ridiculous?

to dear amanda,
would you even have a chance to say shut up to me? cause i dont even say you all the time. besides, you always hear only one side of the story. who the hell are you to say me? since the very beginning, when you added me when ben told you to (for whtevr reasons) youve always been saying me. its just. ...ridiculous.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 1:16 AM

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Sighs, i know its my fault, i shouldnt have deleted her stuff.
but the phone really no memory.
like as if i want to quarrel with her. i had enough of quarreling with this family.
i apologised, sincerely. i really didnt mean to delete it.
then she shouted bad things bout me to asha so loudly.
whtevr luh. i wont talk to her anymore.
till she talks to me.
or till she decides to make use of me to accompany her down to admiralty to buy stuff.

fuck lah ): no mood to edit my highhigh post just now alrdy.
Bye.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 10:41 PM

HAHA im back home. OKAY SO ANYWAYS!!
was damn high after exams today.
satisfied with my final artpiece (:

okay after exam, went to mac with nat cia jarad and fahmy.
HAHA DAMN I WAS HIGH LIKE HELL X2039853894734 I TELL YOU!
LAUGH NOT STOP. THEN KEEP JOKING AND JOKING.
SOMETHING ABOUT SATAN AND DEATH GOD. THEN MY CROSS.
RAH! NVM. IT WAS DAMN FUN REALLY.
IM GETTING HIGH JUST RMBRING IT AGAIN. HAHAHAH SO MUCH FUN.

okay then i went to jp for awhile.
then bring jarad to may jiejie's to cut hair.
his hair looks good now. thanks to me.
HAHA. okay. was high at his house too.
watched videos. MISS SWAN DANCING.
i forced him to watch some more miss swan.
he got so disgusted and freaked out, he on his mp3 and blast -.-
haahha.

today's a happy &high day for me. ;D

ohya, i did stupid things at jarad's hse -.-
he bought maxim. then it came with this whtevr its called thing.
then like alot of tools inside lah.
il edit this entry with the pic later.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 8:09 PM

im at jarad's place.
i just created new email. hahaha dont like trishalicious.
so like ya. PILLOWHEAD!

i want to eat maggie.
bye! ;D

cause life's like this (:

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 4:25 PM

Wednesday, May 9, 2007

Okay! Hahahah i did my art halfway alrdy :D
monsters attack! (rarrr)

anyhoos, after tmr's art paper, ITS FINALLY OVER.
(i mean besides oral luh)
yeaps! friday going out with nat and cia!
for the first time please. -.- HAHA YEYS! hoorahhh!
then sat, its cut hair dayyy (jitters)
im scared the haircut will go wrong.
plus, im afraid il regret cutting.
my hair so damn long now alrdy. its like past my brastrap alrdy!
ohmy, itll be a pity to cut it all away /:
(okay im having second thoughts again. I SHOULD STOP)

so like, im takinga break now. ive been doing art since like four plus? yeah.
take a break till nine, watch tv from 9 - 10 then do art again later! yuppps.

so yeah, anyways! about YESTERDAY!
met nigel the fishball at cityhall. [:
then we headed to suntec. settled down at kfc. had our lunch together and talked for about two hours or so. Ohgawd, its been so long. so yeah, we caught up on alot and all. he lent me thumbdrive too! hoorah yey thanks! lol.

Rarrr, i want to eat sakae sushi buffet!
JARAD WE SHALL GO NEXT WEEK OKAY!
haha and jiayou on saving up 700 bucks for the LV wallet.
my brilliant idea, my brilliant choice, THEIR brilliant price ;D

(whines)
im having rashes somewhere near some obscene place.
ITS THE WINGS' FAULT! (okay girls with brains would definately get wht i meant)
ahahhahah.

okay boooo ): its pain lah. like dnoe rashes or skin tear.
didnt paste properly. then rubrub, frictionfriction, until like that now.
KE LIAN DE WOR ARHSXZXZSXZ .. !

(OMG THAT WAS SO EWW)

anddd, im like allergic to SHOKUBUTSU (starts cursing)
grrhhhhs. last time happy happy use johnsons baby milk bath one.
then mom suddenly go buy shokubutsu. wht the hell.
damn itchy lah. the first time it came out last time, mom also bought. i alrdy told her i get rashes when i use shokubutsu. im allergic to kodomo's shampoo too. hahah.
eh but their toothpaste damn nice to eat one uh, i tell you!
when i was young, i used to eat a hell lot of it.

GUESS WHT, PARENTS ARE BACK! BYE!

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 8:25 PM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6KtF7ql3FJc
WATCH THIS MANN.
damn hawt. sexaaaye!

okay at nat's house now.
planned things out alrdy.
go home later, bathe, sleep.
get up, do art ALL THE WAY.
yeaps!

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 1:46 PM

Monday, May 7, 2007

Do your boobs hang low,
Do they wobble to and fro?
You can tie them in a knot,
You can tie them in bow.

;DDD

Okay so like hello! im going to try to make a good and long entry today.
its been so long since i had a long post.
--
im at nat's place now.
math paper was.. gah, scroo. its like crap.
tmr's geog. i shall study later.
(so help, where should i start?)
i keep hearing my teacher say "MNC. MNC"
YES, MNC! Thats wht i shall read on later!

SO.
....tell me whts mnc please!

My Nehneh Crooked.
(wow, awesome.)

--
nat &i were devianting just now.
there was this pic, a girl with a star tattoo like at her stomach area.
the pictures' awesome. she captured everything well.
the tattoo, her finger,

as well as her oh-so-long pubic hair.
No, really, you shouldve seen it.
could any girl even be THAT hairy? o.O
okay i really dont know. i dont belong to the-hairy-category, thank God.

--
Seriously, im beginning to hate her. why do i even bother about her.

When she didnt have asha in the past, she looked for me.
now she has asha, she shoves me aside.
This is wht the world is.
just like ...Her. (yeah, her)

--
nat like fell asleep on her bed luh.
im bored. i have like six ulcers in my mouth!
six. SIX! S-I-X ! 6! LIU! (eh chinese okay!)
Can you believe it! SIXXXXX!
(whines like a biatch)
i dnoe how come so many luhs. four's on my gums, two's on my tongue.
i think the tongue ones are caused by my tongue piercing.
cause like i keep pulling the barbell here and there and then accidentally bite until my tongue.
as for the gums, i really dnoe man.
i think too heaty. Gah.

Okay i actually shopped quite alot recently.
in two weeks:
-high cut sneaks $35
-Topshop tunic dress $33
-school bag $40
-shoulder bag $39.

Yes. Exactly.
so i spent......
(takes 348754mins to count.)

147 buckeroos on two saturdays.
(note: guilty conscience for spending like a whore, thats why the small font)
Hah, im a real shopaholic.
Eh but i save well okay! hahaha :D

Nexttt, im gonna save up for new glasses.
i munna pay on my own luhs.
i want red framed specs, Uh huh! (;
i wanted it the other time alrdy.
(plus, my degree has increased quite alot luh. like even these alphabets that are appearing on the screen as i press the little nipples of the keyboard look blur to me)
(frowns for a bit)
but dad and mom were against my red glasses, claiming its not suitable for school.
This time, if i get em, il go without them!
they cant say no anymore.

Meep!

--
&okay, about.. That.
..Him.
uhh, You.
yeap. thanks for the uh, post.
I went to read it immediately after you told me.
teared for a bit, when i read it.

Well, dont think so much for now okays?
just make sure you get well soon.
your fever's really bad this time and youve got alot of us all worried for you.
drink lotsa water, take your medicine as youre told by your doctor.
NO heaty food too, alright?
dont use the com or watch telly for too long.
you NEED rest, you know it.
Takecare!

im going to deliver liangcha to you in a few hrs time.
[:

&oh, thanks for the salmon the other time.
it was good. ;D

--
OHMYGAWD SPEAKING OF SALMON.
I CRAVE FOR SALMON NOW.
SALMONSALMONSALMON.
(starts being and annoying biatch.)
SALMONSALMONSALMONSALMON.
(fixes an annoying look on my face, bangs my fists on the table and chants)
SALMON! SALMON! SALMON!

(someone owes me sushi!)
hurhururhuhruhurhhuhuruhruurhur.

\

Like, ohmygawd. i think my post's prettaye long this time.
Goodgood, its one step to getting back to how my blog was in the past.
(like when i was able to use the com almost anytime &before bitchia became a fishmonger)

Random:
(strips and hops around Fifi)

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 1:37 PM

Sunday, May 6, 2007

so we're both moving on with life.
no more expecting things from each other.
whtevr feelings we have, keep it in ourselves.
n-o m-o-r-e expecting things from each other.
today's the day.
i guess we've both had enough.
we cant even get along that well as friends.
but still, friends is all we'll be forever. yups.

--
okay!
math paper tmr. whts there to study! o.O lol.
okay theres alot to study. FORMULAS!
diediediedie.
&totally no mood to study.
i want to shopshopshop! i love my topshop dress.

MENUSSUHCKSLIKEOMGWTFSOLIKEYA,BYE.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 12:48 PM

Saturday, May 5, 2007

at jarad's place now.
was damn high just now!
my topshop dress! yeyyeyyy!

headbanging to starfuckers now. RARR! high like hell ;DD

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 9:33 PM

Friday, May 4, 2007

thanks for the memories, even though they werent so great.

no school today, cause poa paper.
okay so like. just woke up.
should i still go nat's house later?
like want to go but abit lazyy.
okaynvm later then decide.

flies

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 12:18 PM

Thursday, May 3, 2007

I couldn't tell you
Why she felt that way
She felt it everyday
And  I couldn't help her
I just watched her make
The same mistakes again

Let the world stop turning,
Let the sun stop burning,
Let them tell you love's not worth going through,
If it all falls apart,
I will know deep in my heart,
The only dream that mattered had come true,
In this life, I was loved by you

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 1:59 PM

like, at nat's place.
watched mtv just now.
tried to pierce myself here and there.

now listening to ACSI band's syf song.
damn nice. awesome.

--
lost for words, with all to say.

Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 1:50 PM