Saturday, March 31, 2007
left band early yesterday to watch Topshop unique &Topman design fashion show. bloody hell, the magazine nvr mention need tics. okay i mean its common sense that tics would be needed for Topshop &Topman. but i didnt think of it! gah D; so like jarad &i had nothing to do alrdy. &i was in school uniform some more. so like couldnt go play pool. then i rmbred i brought fbts. then i brought jarad go buy a new top. punkstar. okay chose one a design for him, he paid, we headed to cuppage, i changed, we played! hahhahhh. i was like complaining to uncle "uncle dont play techno please lehhhhhh." then he changed the music for me. hahhah. okay then headed home.
i want my photoshoot photos! hahah. ;D
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woke up late. my eyes were giving problems too.
so like, not going svc lor.
Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 12:50 PMi want my photoshoot photos! hahah. ;D
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woke up late. my eyes were giving problems too.
so like, not going svc lor.
Thursday, March 29, 2007
im just gonna die la.
i threw the harddisk. and its dead now. harddisks are freaking expensive.
&while trying to open it (with the penknife), i accidentally like stabbed it into my finger.
Hell, it bled like fuck. IM DEAD SERIOUS. the sink was flowing with blood. pictures are with nat. sigh.
Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 6:06 PM Wednesday, March 28, 2007
THE KITTY ADVENTURES OF..
climbing into dad's shirt
(im lazy to rotate the photo)
&walking around the tv room.
okay school was actually awesome today.
took so many photos. im so contented. hahahhhh.
okay so liek yeah sis is back from camp.
whyyy. sooo. earlyyy. GAHHHHH.
random but i feel like eating prawns la bye
Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 11:20 PMtook so many photos. im so contented. hahahhhh.
okay so liek yeah sis is back from camp.
whyyy. sooo. earlyyy. GAHHHHH.
random but i feel like eating prawns la bye
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
so likeee, yisheng gave hweeling &i roche in the morning. hahahh.
skipped exercise. boringgg. talked with zahidah, farrah &hweeling during math.
love those girls. my favouriteeee malay girls. hahaha (inserts heart)
okay then drew &drew today. did two new drawings &added them to my deviantART alrdy.
so like, band after school. sat in the canteen before band. nat &i were going "BLAK NEENJA"
then like in the bandroom nat &i sat in front of the tympani &stared at ourselves. then we talked about our noses &eyes. and we did funny faces to ourselves &all. hahaha. then there was cockroach in the euphonium cupboard (gives exaggerated eww look)
slept while they played syf pieces. (cause i got nth to play ma D; )
okay then scolded one of my juniors for disturbing me while i was sleeping
lyk wtf lah i sleeping then step on my skirt, play with my hair, kick until me
(accidentally though)
BUT STILL, IM SLEEPING LEH HELLO. one should never disturb tania while she is sleeping.
dinner after band.
home after dinner.
i love my little kitty!
skipped exercise. boringgg. talked with zahidah, farrah &hweeling during math.
love those girls. my favouriteeee malay girls. hahaha (inserts heart)
okay then drew &drew today. did two new drawings &added them to my deviantART alrdy.
so like, band after school. sat in the canteen before band. nat &i were going "BLAK NEENJA"
then like in the bandroom nat &i sat in front of the tympani &stared at ourselves. then we talked about our noses &eyes. and we did funny faces to ourselves &all. hahaha. then there was cockroach in the euphonium cupboard (gives exaggerated eww look)
slept while they played syf pieces. (cause i got nth to play ma D; )
okay then scolded one of my juniors for disturbing me while i was sleeping
lyk wtf lah i sleeping then step on my skirt, play with my hair, kick until me
(accidentally though)
BUT STILL, IM SLEEPING LEH HELLO. one should never disturb tania while she is sleeping.
dinner after band.
home after dinner.
i love my little kitty!
i just ate kitkat. hoorah!
Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 10:25 PM Monday, March 26, 2007
FCK LAH.
MY TONGUE PIERCING FCKING CLOSED AGAIN.
i was using the com halfway when i suddenly can taste like blood or rust.
then i quickly take barbell go toilet alrdy. then i open up the boardpin.
then the hole brownish. then i try to squeeze in the barbell. my tongue started to bleed and bleed. and i dont have any of the malay girls with me this time. i was in the toilet squeezing the barbell as i screamed to myself and kicked the walls. but i gave up, once i saw too much blood.
fck it lah. scroo board pins. FCK LAH. ITS LIKE THE FCKING SECOND TIME.
AND GUESS WHT. I COULDNT TASTE AT ALL JUST NOW.
NOW CAN TASTE ONLY ABIT. FCK LAH SERIOUSLY. JUST FCK LAH!
Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 8:55 PMMY TONGUE PIERCING FCKING CLOSED AGAIN.
i was using the com halfway when i suddenly can taste like blood or rust.
then i quickly take barbell go toilet alrdy. then i open up the boardpin.
then the hole brownish. then i try to squeeze in the barbell. my tongue started to bleed and bleed. and i dont have any of the malay girls with me this time. i was in the toilet squeezing the barbell as i screamed to myself and kicked the walls. but i gave up, once i saw too much blood.
fck it lah. scroo board pins. FCK LAH. ITS LIKE THE FCKING SECOND TIME.
AND GUESS WHT. I COULDNT TASTE AT ALL JUST NOW.
NOW CAN TASTE ONLY ABIT. FCK LAH SERIOUSLY. JUST FCK LAH!
okay sooooo...... I REALISED I TOTALLY MISSED COPPELIA!
(whines x98325723)
michaelaka was being a biatch early in the morning. (rolls eyes &goes like "whtevr.")
thennnn, art art art. did four drawings today! ;D
gonna take photos of them later &put them up on deviantART.
(chants: SOFUNSOFUNSOFUN!)
okay so, so far almost everyone who has seen the pic told me to go cut.
howhowhow. but like that il miss my long hair aye. heartpain abitabit. hahahh.
didnt sleep at all in class today okayyyy! (but drew alot)
slacked in the canteen with the babes, after school. shared stories &lame jokes.
then 4n2 went for their remedials, while erna &i slacked in the canteed once more.
talked. its been so long since we really talked. [; whees!
uhh then played the piano in the canteen for abit. erna helped me call nat. found out she left school alrdy -.= okay so we all went home. rarr!
Random:
1 my sensitive skin's working up behind my knee again.
2 im so into drawing with fine black pens now.
3 i love this blog so much i dont know why.
4 i love my newly decorated diary cover so much too i dont know why.
5 i just had dinner &im so full, i want to fly in a helicopter.
6 i have the sudden urge to camwhore.
(starts singing The Phantom Of The Opera in an exaggerated and dramatic way, sways left &right, then laughs to myself &thinks :omg retarded.)
Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 6:53 PM(whines x98325723)
michaelaka was being a biatch early in the morning. (rolls eyes &goes like "whtevr.")
thennnn, art art art. did four drawings today! ;D
gonna take photos of them later &put them up on deviantART.
(chants: SOFUNSOFUNSOFUN!)
okay so, so far almost everyone who has seen the pic told me to go cut.
howhowhow. but like that il miss my long hair aye. heartpain abitabit. hahahh.
didnt sleep at all in class today okayyyy! (but drew alot)
slacked in the canteen with the babes, after school. shared stories &lame jokes.
then 4n2 went for their remedials, while erna &i slacked in the canteed once more.
talked. its been so long since we really talked. [; whees!
uhh then played the piano in the canteen for abit. erna helped me call nat. found out she left school alrdy -.= okay so we all went home. rarr!
Random:
1 my sensitive skin's working up behind my knee again.
2 im so into drawing with fine black pens now.
3 i love this blog so much i dont know why.
4 i love my newly decorated diary cover so much too i dont know why.
5 i just had dinner &im so full, i want to fly in a helicopter.
6 i have the sudden urge to camwhore.
(starts singing The Phantom Of The Opera in an exaggerated and dramatic way, sways left &right, then laughs to myself &thinks :omg retarded.)
Sunday, March 25, 2007
{edited}OHNOBOOHOO. sissie's going for churchie camp for four days! so i might no be able to use the com! (okay although i alrdy dont get to use it that often now) so like iv planned! go over to jarad's place to use! muahahas.
alright, so like, i was sposed to go to study today. but had slight fever in the morning. feeling much better now. so maybe il just do some self study on my own later. yeaps. i feel that this blog's dead. like not much ppl know of it yet. my tagboard's not alive, not like how it was in the past D; rarrr.
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OKAY I CAN STILL USE THE COM FOR THE NEXT FOUR DAYS! (i talked to sissie then i came to the topic bout the com. &she agreed to remove the password thing for the next four days!) isnt that awesome!? (twirls hair!!)
Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 2:59 PMalright, so like, i was sposed to go to study today. but had slight fever in the morning. feeling much better now. so maybe il just do some self study on my own later. yeaps. i feel that this blog's dead. like not much ppl know of it yet. my tagboard's not alive, not like how it was in the past D; rarrr.
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OKAY I CAN STILL USE THE COM FOR THE NEXT FOUR DAYS! (i talked to sissie then i came to the topic bout the com. &she agreed to remove the password thing for the next four days!) isnt that awesome!? (twirls hair!!)
Saturday, March 24, 2007
so i went for the sexbombs' performance in the end!!
..........&i was late. WHY? cause i spent alot of time thinking if i should go.
so like, yeah. okay they didnt win D; fiqah was crying. so like yeah. went there, hugged each of them. talked to them &cheered them up for abit, then left.
played pool at cuppage. met both big sis and tiny sis there.
okay then we all left together. tiny sis, big sis, yuqian &i.
Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 10:58 PM..........&i was late. WHY? cause i spent alot of time thinking if i should go.
so like, yeah. okay they didnt win D; fiqah was crying. so like yeah. went there, hugged each of them. talked to them &cheered them up for abit, then left.
played pool at cuppage. met both big sis and tiny sis there.
okay then we all left together. tiny sis, big sis, yuqian &i.
when the beat comes on,
the girls all line up.
the girls all line up.
yey waddy'a think!! ;D
Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 2:38 PM
&i present you.....
pictures of my piano!! ;D
pictures of my piano!! ;D
Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 2:33 PMso like, i didnt go for svc (duhh) thats why im at home now.
was sposed to go to watch the babe's dance performance at ps at 4.30pm.
still thinking if i should go or not. cause apparently, im sick.
didnt sleep well last night. i practically woke up at every hour lah-.-
cough &flu. so i coughed &sneezed till my asthma came. followed by fever.
so like yeah. but i still feel like going to the dance performance leh!
OKAY SO SHOULD I GO OUT STILL? (frowns and thinkkkks)
cause if im gonna go, id better start preparing. like, NOW.
Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 2:28 PMwas sposed to go to watch the babe's dance performance at ps at 4.30pm.
still thinking if i should go or not. cause apparently, im sick.
didnt sleep well last night. i practically woke up at every hour lah-.-
cough &flu. so i coughed &sneezed till my asthma came. followed by fever.
so like yeah. but i still feel like going to the dance performance leh!
OKAY SO SHOULD I GO OUT STILL? (frowns and thinkkkks)
cause if im gonna go, id better start preparing. like, NOW.
Friday, March 23, 2007
we did talk in the end.
yey [:
okay art lesson.
woosh, this year's gonna be really tough.
id better start working on it this very second. theres no time to waste now.
all three of us are doing a book. lol. [:
slept for three periods today. so tired la, had only about 3 hours of sleep the previous night.
band after school.
dinner after band.
teresa (&jacob) after dinner!
hahhaha. okay had alot of fun talking to her actually. did some catching up. i was the one doing the talking most of the time. her life like nothing much happen, so she nothing much to say. hahahha. i had soooo muchhhh to tell her. i started from the very beginning, in fact. like from the time we just quarreled. so i started tell her bout janice &i. (blahblahblah) we took the train to admiralty. then took to woodlands ( hahah -.-) then to cwp, cause both of them wana buy present for jj (i dnoe how to spell his name luh) okay then we seperated at woodlands bus interchange. hahaha. had fun luh. i miss that lovelaye. [: (inserts hearts and hugs)
my parents arent in sg! ;D ...okay la but they'll be back tomorrow. they went to malacca again, for their buddhissyshit. but for one day only luh. tsk. why nvr go longerrrr. /:
Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 11:17 PMyey [:
okay art lesson.
woosh, this year's gonna be really tough.
id better start working on it this very second. theres no time to waste now.
all three of us are doing a book. lol. [:
slept for three periods today. so tired la, had only about 3 hours of sleep the previous night.
band after school.
dinner after band.
teresa (&jacob) after dinner!
hahhaha. okay had alot of fun talking to her actually. did some catching up. i was the one doing the talking most of the time. her life like nothing much happen, so she nothing much to say. hahahha. i had soooo muchhhh to tell her. i started from the very beginning, in fact. like from the time we just quarreled. so i started tell her bout janice &i. (blahblahblah) we took the train to admiralty. then took to woodlands ( hahah -.-) then to cwp, cause both of them wana buy present for jj (i dnoe how to spell his name luh) okay then we seperated at woodlands bus interchange. hahaha. had fun luh. i miss that lovelaye. [: (inserts hearts and hugs)
my parents arent in sg! ;D ...okay la but they'll be back tomorrow. they went to malacca again, for their buddhissyshit. but for one day only luh. tsk. why nvr go longerrrr. /:
problems, problems.
Oh bloodaye hell, problematic lifestyle!
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some conflicts start with a ridiculously stupid reason.
&somehow, they never seem to be able to end.
both parties have got to really learn to give in.
i have apologised umpteen times.
this friendship-
its hopeless, isnt it?
i hope it isnt.
&for other situations,
theres no point in explaining everything.
contradiction.
another problem is gullibility.
when one is too gullible, she just doesnt know who &what to believe.
Life's just so full of complications, yes?
when will these bullcrap end?
they never seem to end.
its like a serial. it just goes on &on &on. Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 2:17 AM
Oh bloodaye hell, problematic lifestyle!
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some conflicts start with a ridiculously stupid reason.
&somehow, they never seem to be able to end.
both parties have got to really learn to give in.
i have apologised umpteen times.
this friendship-
its hopeless, isnt it?
i hope it isnt.
&for other situations,
theres no point in explaining everything.
contradiction.
another problem is gullibility.
when one is too gullible, she just doesnt know who &what to believe.
Life's just so full of complications, yes?
when will these bullcrap end?
they never seem to end.
its like a serial. it just goes on &on &on. Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 2:17 AM
Thursday, March 22, 2007
thank God i wasnt late for school today. i reached just on time! if not, id be marked late three days, consecutively. &that'd definitely cause trouble. (frowns)
was reading the papers during chinese lesson and saw toru &kelly, posing for SDT's current performace, coppelia. &then i started to feel a lil heavyhearted. i was just thinking, the other day. the parents always threaten to give away prince &knight. but they love prince &knight so much, that i doubt theyd even be able to let them go. &i thought to myself, they deprived me of piano (not anymore though) &ballet. if they were to give those two furry animals away too, id make sure they make it up to me, by giving me back ballet. (&i am so gonna beg dad to give me moolah to buy tix for coppelia, btw. I DUNCH CAREEE.)
farrah helped me to pierce my tongue after school. damn, she's good! i didnt feel much pain. well, not as pain as my previous experience with zahidah, at least. [:
farrah did it well. &its quite straight too! its not too much to the front too. hoorah! (runs around with my tongue stuck out and waves hands in the air)
i cant stand the fact that i havent touched the com yesterday. urghhs. sissie's honestly being an effing bitch lah! sighs. she doesnt leave the com on sleep mode for me now, when she goes out, everyday. she claims that when she leaves it on sleep for me, mom &dad would off the internet connection, then she wont get to use. doesnt she realise how theyve been going on &on about offing the internet connection when no one's using the com? so obviously when she's out &no one's using the com, they off the internet connection lah wtf
!@#$%^&*bitttcchhhhhhhh.
♡ ballet.
dance; the art of movements.
Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 10:03 PMwas reading the papers during chinese lesson and saw toru &kelly, posing for SDT's current performace, coppelia. &then i started to feel a lil heavyhearted. i was just thinking, the other day. the parents always threaten to give away prince &knight. but they love prince &knight so much, that i doubt theyd even be able to let them go. &i thought to myself, they deprived me of piano (not anymore though) &ballet. if they were to give those two furry animals away too, id make sure they make it up to me, by giving me back ballet. (&i am so gonna beg dad to give me moolah to buy tix for coppelia, btw. I DUNCH CAREEE.)
farrah helped me to pierce my tongue after school. damn, she's good! i didnt feel much pain. well, not as pain as my previous experience with zahidah, at least. [:
farrah did it well. &its quite straight too! its not too much to the front too. hoorah! (runs around with my tongue stuck out and waves hands in the air)
i cant stand the fact that i havent touched the com yesterday. urghhs. sissie's honestly being an effing bitch lah! sighs. she doesnt leave the com on sleep mode for me now, when she goes out, everyday. she claims that when she leaves it on sleep for me, mom &dad would off the internet connection, then she wont get to use. doesnt she realise how theyve been going on &on about offing the internet connection when no one's using the com? so obviously when she's out &no one's using the com, they off the internet connection lah wtf
!@#$%^&*bitttcchhhhhhhh.
♡ ballet.
dance; the art of movements.
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
alright, im like using my dad's com now!
sis doesnt want to lend me her com (rolls eyes and scrunches up face)
so i use daddy's com while he's ohming in the living room!
okay school today was alright, after all.
we did talk. so like yeah. everything went well.
&i was like laughing to myself in class cause i was listening tuned in to muttonsinthemorning!
then they were talking bout superstitious beliefs. like yeah.
they said some really stupid stuff that apparently made me laugh to myself lah. -.=
(or was i just being the usual, easily amused me.)
okay after school was banddd!
mathi was being stupid.
like, "tania your position make your ass very sexy, later i horny how!"
roy: sia lah!
mathi: sherhan i saw you staring at her ass!
sherhan: ....what!?
like yeah. then i took an approximately 2hrs nap behind the drumset.
hahhahhahahhah.
(okay shit dad just caught me using his com. &he's now complaining how messy my room is.)
Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 11:01 PMsis doesnt want to lend me her com (rolls eyes and scrunches up face)
so i use daddy's com while he's ohming in the living room!
okay school today was alright, after all.
we did talk. so like yeah. everything went well.
&i was like laughing to myself in class cause i was listening tuned in to muttonsinthemorning!
then they were talking bout superstitious beliefs. like yeah.
they said some really stupid stuff that apparently made me laugh to myself lah. -.=
(or was i just being the usual, easily amused me.)
okay after school was banddd!
mathi was being stupid.
like, "tania your position make your ass very sexy, later i horny how!"
roy: sia lah!
mathi: sherhan i saw you staring at her ass!
sherhan: ....what!?
like yeah. then i took an approximately 2hrs nap behind the drumset.
hahhahhahahhah.
(okay shit dad just caught me using his com. &he's now complaining how messy my room is.)
Monday, March 19, 2007
in my previous blog, i havent been publishing my posts for days. but rather, saving them as drafts. sometimes, my life just gets so fckd up, i dont wish for ppl to know how fckd it is. i try to run and hide. but it doesnt get the better of me. im like on a roller coaster of emotions.
someone pushes the button, or winds me up-- Rewind, Stop, Play.
skipped school today. its a foolish decision i know, to skip school just so you dont have to face that someone. but i know very well, that if i went, id prolly be bitched by her once more, or just be 'transparent'. &i choose not to let myself get treated that way, so i made an unwise decision to just sleep right into my afternoon.
i was so upset about what happened the other day, not to mention, last night's text-message-conversation with her. giving in is not equivalant to shooting back at me and how you go about with "yes i know your life is fckd and i do not need to tolerate with your nonsense". whts with this world and selfishness? whts with this world and the negative sides? i cant answer that. cause imma victim of it all too.
the parents are apparently not back from their indonesia trip (for their buddhissyshit once more)
&i cant wait for the crappy part of life to be over.
(and the long awaited confession)
confession: i overdose myself on pills.
and boy, am i glad to see my health ruined.
oh gawd, im insane.
Bastard child of guilt &shame\ 7:02 PMconfession: i overdose myself on pills.
and boy, am i glad to see my health ruined.
oh gawd, im insane.