Monday, March 19, 2007
in my previous blog, i havent been publishing my posts for days. but rather, saving them as drafts. sometimes, my life just gets so fckd up, i dont wish for ppl to know how fckd it is. i try to run and hide. but it doesnt get the better of me. im like on a roller coaster of emotions.
someone pushes the button, or winds me up-- Rewind, Stop, Play.
skipped school today. its a foolish decision i know, to skip school just so you dont have to face that someone. but i know very well, that if i went, id prolly be bitched by her once more, or just be 'transparent'. &i choose not to let myself get treated that way, so i made an unwise decision to just sleep right into my afternoon.
i was so upset about what happened the other day, not to mention, last night's text-message-conversation with her. giving in is not equivalant to shooting back at me and how you go about with "yes i know your life is fckd and i do not need to tolerate with your nonsense". whts with this world and selfishness? whts with this world and the negative sides? i cant answer that. cause imma victim of it all too.
the parents are apparently not back from their indonesia trip (for their buddhissyshit once more)
&i cant wait for the crappy part of life to be over.